Roasted Cauliflower Cake

Roasted Cauliflower Cake | Lisa Samuel |

Two weeks ago, I turned 40.

If you’ve been reading along, you’ll know that I had planned to be biking through Vietnam on that day, but we had to cancel the trip.  Instead, Elie made sure I was spoiled.  I went to a yoga class with Mom, got pampered at the spa, spent time in the hospital with Moe, and enjoyed a wonderful dinner at Hawksworth.  It was a great day, and a joyful one.

Truth be told, I wanted to be biking through rice fields when I turned 40, because I thought it would distract me from that milestone.  Historically, as my birthday approaches, I click through the running life list in my head, making note of the things I haven’t yet done, my shortcomings, the failures and disappointments, the mistakes I’ve made.  Am I the person I want to be? Have I accomplished enough? Done enough? Am I enough?

It’s exhausting.